Monday, October 26, 2009

One Word = Failure

I couldn't help it. I caved and failed! With all the stress I was feeling at work, I couldn't stop the urge to destress the way I used to and only way I knew how = shop! So few weeks ago my biggest weakness mocked me at Nordstrom Rack.

My sister came for a visit one Saturday because she needed to shop for new Fall outfits for work, so she went straight to the expert shopper for help. I consistently told her that I was out of practice and shouldn't be entering in the danger zone. So to avoid possible temptation, I took her to Nordstrom Rack instead of Downtown SF. It would be safer because in case I cave, I would feel less guilty buying something on sale than getting something full price at the department stores. When we got there, I bee-lined straight to my favorite spots: handbags, shoes, and accessories. After quick focused glances, I didn't find anything interesting or worth my while. Well, good. I thought I was safe. Then my sister appears to tell me that we came on a good day, because today the Rack was hosting a "secret" sale on handbags. Apparently, there were some goodies hidden in the back room and I need to get a number to gain access. Hmm...that really sparked my interest. It won't hurt to look right?

WRONG! After waiting almost 2 hours for my turn, I was determined to get something! I can't go empty handed! But I must not shop and must be good. I repeatedly reminded myself not to bother getting my hopes up high because I was number 33. I'm sure there wouldn't be anything really good left. Well, my number was finally called and I entered. Sure enough, there weren't that much left. UNTIL.....

I spotted quickly at the very end...hidden in the corner....what is that I see....is that, NO!!!! It can't be???? CHLOE! What are you doing here alone??? My haste quicken and my heartbeat raised! What! Is that really you??? So I grabbed, I touched, and I smelled. Sure enough it was trully her. So what I did next was the big deal breaker....I turned over the tag...

Next thing you know it, I'm at the register with my prize and shoppers remorse was eating me up! I couldn't, I shouldn't, but I had to! I couldn't turn down a designer handbag that was 75% off! Originally $1670 to a lovely $499! And it's still currently sold at some department stores! Need I say more! I couldn't pass that deal up.

So welcome to my closet, Chloe Heloise. (Chloes are beautiful, but you have to make sure you build some arm muscle to carry those bags! The heavy duty hardware really adds weight!) But Chloes are one-of-a kind and a work of art! But really, the best thing about Chloe was she gave me the therapy I needed. After ingesting the lovely smell of the authentic leather...it gave me the high I needed this month...stress, what stress????

You would be proud! I was. So I confessed to my husband and shown him my treasure. He was surprisingly ok with it. He saw all the tears and sleepless nights I had the last couple of weeks, and he understood. I knew he couldn't stand in the way of my only happiness. If Chloe can help me forget just once the misery I've been experiencing...then so be it.

Misery loves company and I'm glad Chloe joined my closet crew!

Monday, September 21, 2009

113 days and counting...!

It's been 113 days since my itch, my shopping itch, and I really need to scratch it! Since my big day, 113 days ago, I promised to turn over a new leaf because I must now consider what my husband would say if I were to purchase that lovely handbag. I can't be selfish. My purchases must be beneficial for the both of us now. It can't be for the pleasure of adding another nice piece to my wonderful collection. I just signed that contract to refi the house, and in the mist of transferring money from my savings to ready for the kitchen remodel...I have to be strong and look at the bigger picture! But IT'S SOOO HARD! I didn't realize that marriage life can be that difficult!

So I tried to compromise by going to H&M and Target, and perusing Macy's website for a lesser expensive bag to satisfy my craving....Nope. I was not interested AT ALL! Plus it wouldn't be a fitting member for my collection. I should have known 2 years ago that it was dangerous territory I was entering, the fabulous designer territory, when I purchased my first Chanel for my 30th birthday. Because that's when the change happened...when my taste for goods skyrocketed and now I can't turn back! I know too well, too much that the price for superior quality is a very high price to pay, but it's so worth it. They are beyond beautiful! They are timeless and classic.

So now I'm contemplating and rationalizing...maybe I SHOULD get a new bag to celebrate my new job next week? I deserve it right? Or maybe I NEED a new bag for my new job??? It's best to walk into a new company and mark my new path in life with a fabulous friend on my side! And maybe I COULD refrain myself from purchasing undeserving bags and saving it for THE ONE bag for the end of the year? That's strong of me right??? Plus I CAN afford it! I have very good credit. I pay all my credit cards in full and rarely, and I mean RARELY do I ever carry a balance over. I have money in savings and I don't need my husband or anyone to buy it for me! I'm a responsible shopper! BUT I CAN'T! I JUST CAN'T. I need to look beyond at what's best for me, for US!!!

BUT why are they all for turning on me!!! Why is Neimans, Bloomies, and Saks sending me catalogs of their upcoming fall collection???? Or Marie Claire, Lucky, InStyle, and Bazaar splashing images of the "IT Bags" on their covers!!! Or Chanel, Gucci, and MJ sending me evites for peeks of their new collections???? Why, why? Damn them all for tempting my itch! Ugh!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I'm literally scratching myself as we speak! Damn them!